carnage.

on thanksgiving i went over to my uncle carls house in search of skulls and other random sick shit that might be laying around... and as predicted there were all kinds of sick things in his trapping shed.
like these leg hold traps.


and these animal testicles hanging from the ceiling.


and this nasty bait bucket.


and these skins... i think they are muskrats or something.


there were 2 fox furs hanging too.


im not sure what kind of skull this is... uncle carl wasnt home so i didnt steal it.


as we were getting ready to leave the little house of horrors i found what looked like a pile of grey hounds in the wood line.


i soon realized they were the bodies of the fox furs hanging in the shed.


the one open mouth was kinda creepy and awesome.


i wanted to steal the skull on the bucket and one of the fox skulls but i didnt want to try to detach them myself so i decided to wait for uncle carl. my uncle ricky gave me the skull of a bobcat that he had shot. i havent taken a picture of it yet but i will soon i promise. both of my uncles are officially collecting skulls for me. im excited. with their help it wont be long before i have an amazing collection.
um ya. so thats all for now.

loves.
ames.

gobble. gobble.

happy thanksgiving!


we went to aunt sandras for lunch/dinner.
uncle jim is pretty much the most amazing cook ever.
he lost his recipe for the sweet potato and apple casserole that i love the most. i was a little sad about that...
this is our raped turkey.

and our pork roast.

and the table mostly set and ready to go...

i wish i had taken a picture of the rolls. they were huge and amazing.
food was good.
family was good.
i even got a new skull from my uncle ricky. i will take a picture of it and share it and my other nasty pictures from my uncle carls trapping shed tomorrow.

loves.
ames.

longest weekend ever.

jon came to visit me this weekend. it was insanely cold so we did very little outside. on friday we went to portland head light.
this is a picture of some rocks.


this is portland head light.

this is some other light house.

this is one of those things i dont know the name of but love so very much.

this is some horn looking thing.

this is inside one of the forts.
i love this picture a lot.

this is down on the beach.

we spent the rest of the weekend trying to stay inside.
we went to strange maine. i bought a couple of books. one about ants and the other is bike routes in maine.
there is tons of awesome stuff hanging all over the store.
like this.

and this.
i cant remember what he is from.

we went to some barn antique/junk store place.
there was all kinds of treasure there.
like this awesome sign in the parking lot.

and this lobster man.
i have kinda been in love with lobster men and fishermen lately.

i like old bottles.

this was a paperweight.

i like this picture very much.
it was a table.

this thing was seriously creepy. the top of it was all burned.

there were some pretty awesome bird prints.
we have a bird that looks like the one in the top left that hangs out on the feeder here on the farm all the time... i seriously see him everyday.

and skulls galore.
speaking of skulls... i found a whole mouse skeleton with the skin still on it in one of the other upstairs rooms today. i am super excited about it.

i found a hand tool graveyard.
there were so many rusty tools... i could have stayed there all day taking pictures.

today we went to big als.
there was a sea of junk.
i didnt really take any pictures there. except for these cows that looked like baby bert.

and then we went to the flea market in brunswick.
jon found these in the drawer of a dresser thing...

they were rectal and vaginal electrodes... there was even paperwork about it.

im not really sure what that was about it was really strange... im thinking they must have had a medical purpose at some point... i dont really know.
i do know that i love love love this picture.

and this made me think of richmond.

this made me think of drew... he should have it on a shelf at 702.

i am tired.
i have tons of other pictures but i am too lazy to post them all.
maybe on a different day.

loves.
ames.

ps. is the work week over yet?
pss. what do you mean it hasnt even started yet?

fuck snow.

so we had a snow meeting again at work today.
they are saying that we might get our first snow storm on tuesday.
we were all given our official truck assignments and plow lists. i am in a 250 with a standard sized cab. so i am in a pretty small truck.
yay for that.
and it will have a v-plow and a pull plow.
i havent used a pull in a couple years but i really liked it the winter that i did. and i have used a v-plow the last 2 years and prefer them to straight blades.
so you would think that i dont have anything to complain about right?
im in a nice small truck.
with great visibility.
and no sander.
all good things right?
right up until you look at my list.
the properties themselves actually arent too bad.
i have a condo association.
a radio station.
a rite-aid.
and a hotel.
the hotel sucks a bit because you always have cars in the way.
so whats the problem?
they are in fucking freeport.
freeport.
as in even further south than topsham.
freeport.
a fucking hour from whitefield.
i am plowing the southernmost property.
a rite-aid in yarmouth.
which is 48 miles from here.
but only 15 miles from smcc.
maybe i should reconsider plowing while i am in school.
especially if i can get unemployment.
hmm.
well i am cold and sleepy so i am going to finish my apple cider and go to bed.

loves.

baby hoot.

so the weather person is a big fat liar.
ok well maybe not but it definitely felt like it.
the high today was 40 degrees but it felt a lot warmer today than it did yesterday. i guess it is because of the wind. yesterday it was super windy all day and today there was hardly a breeze. except for at lunch when we sat down on the beach.
it was a little breezy.
and the tide came in really quickly and we couldnt get off the beach the way we had gotten on the beach and had to scramble up some rocks.
it was fun.
i like eating my lunch on the beach. even if it is a little chilly.
in other completely unrelated news i talked to the man in charge of housing at smcc today.
and guess what?!
my paper that i filled out 2 weeks ago to be put on the waiting list to get into the dorms is lost.
big surprise.
and so i am not on the list.
annnnooooooyyyinnnnnng.
so i talked to the guy and i am going to see him on thursday to fill out the form again. i asked him about how many people were on the list already and what past years have been like and it is sounding like i have a really good chance of getting a room. i forgot to ask him when i would be able to know for sure if i could get a room so i will have to make sure to ask him when i go on thursday.
um ya.
thats about it i guess... i am super tired. its only 8 and i think i am going to go up and snuggle in my bed. before i go i have a couple of pictures that i stole from the internet.
who would think that this


would grow up to be this


holy crap i love owls.

loves.

oink.

i hate mondays.
at least i have lately.
i feel like im not tired on sunday nights so i stay up too late. then i am tired on mondays.
im pretty sure that even though i hated today a whole bunch i will still hate the rest of the week at least as much if not more. todays high was 45 degrees and tomorrow is only supposed to get up to 39 and then wednesday and thursday are supposed to be 36.
36.
at the warmest fuzziest part of the day.
and colder for all the other parts.
i hate working in the cold.
we had a meeting about the snow season today at work.
that was pretty exciting.
i am officially going to plow for goodall for about 5 weeks.
they are laying everyone off as of december 5th and if you are going to plow for them they will let you collect unemployment and then you just get paid hourly for coming in to plow. they are so desperate for plow drivers that they are going to let me do that until i go back to school. i dont really want to but if i can get an unemployment check for sitting on my ass i am going to do it. and even though i usually end up hating plowing very much by the end of the season it really isnt bad for the first month or so.
before your spirit is broken.
and really they are going to pay me pretty good money when it does snow so how can i say no?
i already know i am going to regret this decision.
on a positive note i signed up for classes today.
i am pretty excited.
i am taking 2 online classes.
i am a little afraid that i will hate them but i think it will be worth it. if i dont get into the dorm than it will be that much less time that i have to spend on campus because i will be able to do my work from home.
so i will be taking 4 classes.
the 2 online classes are statistics and philosophy.
i took philosophy the semester that i withdrew from all of my classes. it was pretty easy but the teacher that i had was super annoying.
the other 2 classes that i am taking are biology classes. i am taking biology 2 and the lab that goes with it and a class called cell biology.
i pretty much should get a's in all of my classes.
now that i am signed up for classes i am a little excited. my bio classes should be fun.
i am excited to draw and label diagrams.
and please please please can we dissect something?
in biology 1 we just looked at pickled specimen.
and little crap under microscopes.
dont get me wrong i loved it.
but i want to see some guts.
i have had this ridiculously awesome dissection kit just sitting in a drawer.
waiting patiently.
ok impatiently.



you should thank me because i looked at some way nastier pictures before settling on this plastic pig butt one.

loves.

beep. beep. beep. beep. beep...

and now for your weekend update...
its sunday night. im a sad that the weekend is over already.
i ♥ weekends.
friday i laid around all day feeling crappy.
saturday i did the same most of the day.
then i went with ron to wiscasset and played scene it with him mama and niece and her friend.
then we went to westport island to hang out with katie.
we watched some random 80s movies and it was fun.
today i dyed kaseys hair and drove ron back to bangor.
the ride is pretty lame but rons dad pays a fair wage.
oh and my stupid fm transmitter for my ipod broke today.
i am ridiculously upset about it.
now i am going to have to charge my ipod in the house... and i am going to have to go back to listening to cds in the car.
boo.
i havent been taking any pictures lately. i wish i was taking more. i kinda miss it. i keep seeing things and wishing that i could take photos...
ugh.
its annoying.
i dont want to work.
i think i am going to put my car on craigslist this week and see if there are any suckers out there that would maybe like to buy a slightly used ford focus.
it is really good on gas.
i hate having a car.
it feels like i am treading water with an anchor around my ankle.
life in general has been feeling that way lately.
i dont think it is just the car.
i have really been feeling pressure lately to figure out what it is exactly that i want to do with my life.
almost like there is an adulthood alarm clock going off.
only i cant snooze it.
you know?
i think i need sleep.

loves.
ames.

i've got nothin'.

hey.
i just got home from mikes house.
it has been 12 years since i saw him.
it was weird.
but also really cool.
i saw pictures of his children.
they are really cute.
he had a collection of insects and skulls in his livingroom.
pretty much right up my alley.
i would like to spend more time with him but i dont want him to get the wrong idea.
boys tend to get the wrong idea from me.
why is it that guys cant be friends with girls without thinking that we want to fuck them?
um ya. so i am a little drunk.
and a little tired.
i think i am going to pick a tv show to watch and pass out.

loves.
ames.

amys very big post.

so i have some pictures today. that is pretty exciting. it has been a little while since i have posted any. this first one is a bowl that was part of my mamas gift when she was awarded volunteer of the year at her work thing last week... i like it.

i think i mentioned that kasey and i made a few christmas ornaments the other day. she had made this one before i got home from work.

then she was making a christmas tree out of buttons and i kept teasing her about doing a crappy job. so i decided that i needed to make one too to prove that i would do a better job.
i did.

then we made matching penguins.
arent they cute?

i wont tell you which one is mine but you should be able to tell... its the one that looks better.

um ya so i am more than a little glad that the work week is over. i feel like this has been the longest week ever. i have been tired and cranky all week. i think its a combination of a lot of things.
yesterday was definitely the most annoying day of the week. i ended up getting into an argument with one of my coworkers because he told me that my belly was big.
not just big.
very big.
and he was serious.
we kid back and forth a lot and the first two times he said it i tried to ignore him because i thought he was kidding and didnt realize that he was being offensive.
then when he said it again and i realized that he actually believed it i got angry.
then it turned into us arguing.
then it turned into me crying.
not because i believe him... but it hurt my feelings.
i dont understand how someone could be so cruel.
what if i really was fat?
or had an eating disorder that he didnt know about?
what if i had been dangerously close to the edge and he pushed me over it?
he pretty much did.
the argument ended with him telling me that he was sorry. but he told me that he felt like he was entitled to his opinion and he was sorry that it hurt my feelings.
basically he wanted me to know that he really did think my belly was "very big" but he was sorry that he had made me cry about it.
im pretty sure that everyone who reads this has already seen my belly. but in case you havent or maybe if you are having a hard time remembering it or picturing it i have posted a photo.

i definitely have a belly.
but it definitely is not big.
never mind very big.
fucking ignorant fuckhead.
on that note i am going to go to bed. it is 2 hours past my normal bedtime.

loves.

obsessive? who? me?

its late.
im tired.
but im to ocd to skip a day.

loves.

thats definately going to leave a mark.

so ya. um work was pretty much the same as it always is.
the boys teased me about the normal things.
my accent.
my armpits.
you know.
important things.
we were on the coast for 2 out of the 3 jobs so it was a little chilly.
when i was driving down main street in brunswick i saw this guy fall off his bike.
it was really funny to me because he seemed to fall for no reason right in the middle of the sidewalk. and then the face he was making was really great. and he couldnt seem to untangle himself from his bike so he was just sort of floundering there on the sidewalk for what seemed like an eternity.
so ya. needless to say i laughed really hard about it.
i kinda felt a little guilty about it after he was out of view. i was kinda thinking to myself geez amy you are kind of a jerk to be laughing so hard at this guy falling and maybe hurting himself.
then like 20 minutes later i was climbing into the back of the work truck and i smashed my knee into the tailgate.
hard.
then i was rolling around on the tailgate whining about my knee.
floundering.
karma is such an asshole sometimes.
i stopped by hannaford in gardiner on my way home to pick up some apple cider for my mama.
do you think i can go to the grocery store in gardiner without seeing someone that i know...
nope.
at least it wasnt someone who wanted to talk to me so that was good.
kasey came over for dinner and craft night.
we made a couple of christmas ornaments. they are pretty cute. i took pictures but i am too lazy to upload them right now. maybe i will do it tomorrow.
its almost 930 which is waaaaay past my bedtime so um.... ya.
off to bed.

loves.

keep warm dear, keep dry.

so i dont really have anything to talk about today.
it is getting cold.
i am getting tired of my job.
i am feeling uninspired and a little cranky.
i have had this alanis morissette song in my head all day...
anyone else remember it and love it as much as me?

whats the matter mary jane
you had a hard day
as you place the dont disturb sign on the door
you lost your place in line again
what a pity
you never seem to want to dance anymore
its a long way down on this roller coaster
the last chance street car went off the track
and you're on it
i hear your counting sheep again mary jane
whats the point in trying to dream anymore
i hear you're losing weight again mary jane
do you ever wonder who you're losing it for
well its full speed baby
in the wrong direction
theres a few more bruises
if that's the way you insist on heading
please be honest mary jane
are you happy
please don't censor your tears
you're the sweet crusader
and you're on your way
you're the last great innocent
and thats why i love you
so take this moment mary jane and be selfish
worry not about the cars that go by
all that matters mary jane is your freedom
keep warm my dear, keep dry
tell me, tell me
what's the matter mary jane
tell me, tell me
please be honest mary jane
tell me

off to bed.
maybe tomorrow i will have something interesting to say.
maybe not.

loves.
ames.

ps. loves is mine.

you gee ate-ch.

ugh.
that pretty much somes up how i feel today.
im tired.
and cranky.
my back hurts.
my brain hurts.
i slept like crap last night.
i shit blood today.
again.
i think i am dying.
faster than i want to be.

loves.

my mama bee awesome.

so as promised i have pictures from my mamas play last night. they are pretty much the funniest pictures ever. unfourtunately the ones i took of the actual play all came out to dark because the lighting sucked in there...
this one is from when they were trying to put my mamas wings on.

this is the queen laughing at some joke she made.

these next few are just my mom being awesome...
i wonder where i get it? its weird.

she was like santa claus.

this is one of the scouts.

this is from the song thank god im a country bee.

this group shot is out of focus but i think you get the idea.

i have the next 3 days off from work and i couldnt be more excited. ron is coming home this weekend so im excited about that too. we will probably make the rounds and go to brunswick to see rick, topsham to rake dads lawn and westport island to see katie. not sure what else i will do this weekend. i have to do some laundry. that should be fun.
i got my paycheck from tiger landscaping today.
yay for that.
i was a little afraid it wouldnt come. i would have been royally screwed. goodall doesnt pay me until next friday and i have some bills that reeeeaaallllyyy need to be paid.
can you believe i still havent finished born into brothels yet? its starting to get a little ridiculous..
oh. and guess what!?
today is national nachos day.
my most favorite day of the year.
i didnt have nachos today but i put some of my enchilada on tortilla chips just to celebrate.
it really is. you can go here and check it out if you dont believe me.
http://www.slashfood.com/2007/11/06/happy-national-nachos-day/
um so ya. i guess i am going to go snuggle in my bed now and try to finish my movie once and for all.

loves.
ames.